” I am very tender ” colorless dream bamboo / , this chapter in all 2022 words, update at: 2017-08-25 06:47
The boss mentions the misfortune of his daughter, had burst into tears, I also by his sad and sad infection, just blindly follow him to weep.
Another becomes silent, the tear on his wipe face raises a face again: “Very fast, gong Mei came, she resembles mad the half alive that attacks to cry to the daughter’s body euqally! She cries, when awaking again, discovery is in my bosom, of her death catch flinch I want to mix I desperately, let me return her daughter — she hates me — cannot excuse me more! If not be me so not responsible, how can the daughter have an accident? It is the daughter that I killed us — you do not know, gong Mei is the sort of very gentle and quiet and composed, also pay attention to the woman of figure very much, she is done not have so pass nohow, lose a daughter to have to her blow it is thus clear that how old? Whats cannot offset the harm that loses a daughter to be caused to her! From wherefrom moment begins, she also did not say a word with me again, she is disinclined to see me even, he hates me — . He hates me — ..
He stops again, this tear has been on his face caky, he ases if in the circumstances that was immersed in bloodcurdling beyond redemption, sound bleak is helpless: “My appearance does not give the anguish at that time and despair, but the hospital still has my sick into death father, I must swipe spirit goes to a hospital. Father from time to time is sober in those days from time to time is in narcosis. What does he seem to feel beforehand? Wanted to regain consciousness to be able to ask only: Thriving did dry what go? How so long will see me? I dare not tell truth with father, I can lie only: Thriving went to school cannot stay for long in the hospital, will had seen you after school, always caught up with you to be asleep! Don’t I have the courage to think if father knew thriving thing should have many sad? I do not have the courage to think can have how sequential. Even if such, father still is in finally October 15 also forever left me! Father still is in finally October 15 also forever left me!!
In succession loses two the closest dear ones, such blow is an iron beater, unavoidable also endure do not rise. I look at him afraidly, hope he can earn emergence to come from inside painful lair as early as possible more! Does much him hope have method to change his misfortune? I dare not ask again even: “Why do you want to divorce later? “Why do you want to divorce later??
In the heart that he saw me probably, hanging low palpebral say: “Father leaves the following day, gong Mei also left. She was dealt with go the formalities with emigrant Singapore, found me to sign on divorce agreement through the lawyer, he does not agree even final one side to see me — visible, she hates me to have many deep! This all one’s life she is impossible to excuse me! We feeling of more than 10 years so ended, I still do not have reaction to come over even — “
Suddenly feel the man destiny before is even more miserable than me, oneself are small setback only so, do not have catastrophe of what big calamity, he just is the real all previous practice with endure the world the most painful.
He is enmeshed deeply in anguish again, had not known how long, suddenly on the face that admires eye having a head to turn to me: “I had never spoken of this thing with others, include Cheng child two elder sisters with me. You do not know, after Gong Mei leaves, my whole world cave in! Had had long period of time I live in sadness, self-condemned, contrite in, the rock that I keep at the moment is worn the daughter’s innocent and lovely little face, from time to time she is crying to ask me: Father, why don’t you receive me to come home? Are you fond of exultation glad? Are you not thriving? Are you and mom not thriving? I dare not recollect a few words that Tong Gongmei is together even, just also can see her in the dream only the hidden bitterness of one face, see what she hates anger look at me — I know them forever won’t Rao Shu me! But I do not think them without method, I face the fact before without method. I face the fact before without method..
He is long why tone, silent, in a way of this ability mood has some of assuasive say: “At that time, I plan to give 2 elder sisters the business of restaurant even, probably two my elder sisters also see my heart grey meaning is cold, unripe without can love, they worry about me more, be afraid of me always so demoralized go down to cannot free oneself from inside anguish come out, morning and evening also can leave them, they know, to me, probably the exclusive pillar that the restaurant that father uses painstaking effort all one’s life to be changed is my subsist. Altho[……]